Unrequited

In all my narratives I’m the villain.And it’s always “why did I say that”Or “why didn’t I say anything”.Nothing else.Feels like holding me accountable is all I’ve ever known.I’m an anomaly.No, really.In this world of everyone focusing on themselves,I’m the exception.When someone shows their true colours,All I still do is see the bigger picture-Them on…

Dreaming a Dream Till It’s Not Just That- A Dream

One midnight I dream a dream:I see us side by sideOn your childhood bed by the windowAnd it’s raining.You’re tired and fast asleep But you’ve still got your arm under my neck,Wrapping me closer to your chest.You mumble in your sleep and sometimesYou just unknowingly kiss my face Like how you always do When you’re…

Change: Not For Me But Yourself.

I wonder if you even know this blog’s name:This place where my heart’s out on display.I don’t honestly know If you ever cared for the things I care.But I do see how you’ve beenTaking me and my words for granted.You consistently tell me I’m “super”But why don’t I ever feel that way?Why must I write…

First Priority

I’ve never had anyone put me firstAs much as I put them.I know it’s not a tab-keeping game,But sometimes my heart just wants to rant. At times it wants to scream:Louder in a shrill tone that’ll scare you-Angrier than the angriest you’ve ever seen me,Reminding you why ignoring me isn’t allowed. I know that it…

Unanswered Hankering

My mind can be so cruel to myselfYet so kind to others.I would do anything to changeThe way my brain thinks. The more I learn about the world,The less I understand why I exist.This burning sensation in me never stops-I am scared this is all I’ll ever be. I don’t blame you but Sometimes I…

Love’s Labour’s Lost

Note: This is an old poem, written circa 2019, during a breakup. I never got the chance to know you.Couldn’t meet the real and complete you.So I fell in love with the idea of you. Even in my depths of despair,I honestly kept longing for a feelingOf being truly wanted by you. I kept wondering…

Pain

I don’t know what I’m afraid of:Seeing you again or not seeing you again.I remember letting you go onceWith all my sorrow and much agony.I felt peace not knowing your whereaboutsFor you were to be left in my past.But it’s been months nowAnd memories are mean little things.They bring back the days I’d rather forgetThan…

Decampment

As strange as it seems as none feels any stranger, My muse with the hands that controlled, Has left me. He’s got too many to keep in check, Too many to rip away and too many to Burden with convoluted feelings. Though this eerie was oft foretold By many and almost everyone I knew, It…

Consternation

This is unimportant butLately I’ve been so anxious-Of work, life and people.I wonder if someone reads it off my face,If I’m doing a good job hiding itBut who really notices my face? As luck kept shining a tad too muchEverything always came easy-No tolls paid or any well plunged.Being the lost wanderer who tastedJust the…

To the one who sends letters…

A tap away, a touch away and maybe a swipe awayYet she writes letters to the ones she’s close.To people who view statuses, she’s someone who inditesBut to the ones she meekly writes,See her as a bundle of cheery alphabetsThat they never saw coming. I’ve dismissed calls and I’vePretended to be busy with all the…

Feminine

I am that twisted person you dislike, That enchanted soul you fell for. Bearer of an underrated corporal, Beauty doesn’t make much gleam. My stare is powerful for the reasons I look, Yet delicate to hearts that render love. My acrimonious speech undoubtedly slices you Whilst being ardent to a few. Every strong portrait once…